Wednesday, May 18, 2011


It is amazing how busy we have been since I last blogged. Lila will be 5 months old this month. I can't believe how fast time has gone by. TLC filmed our story for a show called Baby's First Day. As the air date approaches I am not sure how I feel. I had a very rough time with the labor process and how things turned out. I am OK with the fact that I had a C-section, we would have ended up in an emergency one anyway if we hadn't already made the decision. Lila was facing the wrong direction, and never turned properly. I am still struggling with the fact that after 36 hours of the labor process and everything we had go on and occasionally go wrong, I was the last person to actually see and hold Lila. Once they got her out, the I.V pole was in my way and then I had to get "knocked" out since I started yelling from being able to feel pain on the table. Because of that I had a longer recovery process to wake up from and after delivering Lila 7 hours earlier, I was finally able to hold her. I guess I am not sure how I feel watching this go on. I don't know how the episode is being aired-we share a half hour show with another birth story-but I am not really sure I am ready to watch this happen again. I don't really expect anyone to comment on this, it is just kind of cathartic to write how I feel down.

1 comment:

  1. Wow, Catheryne, I had no idea that's what happened that day. I'm sure you have incredibly mixed feelings looking back on delivery. Maybe the show will bring some closure? Or do you think it will open up old wounds? Maybe it will help you process and move past it? Whatever the case, we're all glad that you and Lila are safe and healthy. :)

    Be sure to post a link/video if it airs online.